A year ago today, I realized in 9 months everything was going to change in the best way possible. I felt overwhelmed but beyond happy and excited.
A year ago today, I read that you were the size of a poppyseed and I couldn't understand how I could suddenly love someone soooo teeny tiny that I hadn't even met yet, but I did. And somehow, I love you even more with every passing moment.
A year ago today, I told your dad about your impending arrival and it was one of the best moments. He cried and we hugged for a long time and talked and talked and talked about what our new life would be like with three of us. I knew he would make an incredible father, and I was right.
A year ago today, I thought for sure I was having a girl. And yet today, I cannot imagine having anyone else but you.
A year ago today, I wondered what you would look like. What color your hair would be (blonde), what shade of eyes you would have (the prettiest dark blue), if you would look more like me or your dad (jury is still out on that one).
A year ago today, I wondered what it would be like to have my parents suddenly become grandparents and see them interact with you. It's just as wonderful as I thought it would be, if not more. You have a way of making everyone around you instantly light up and it's so fun to watch.
A year ago today, I started imagining your smiles and laughs. Wondering what life would be like with you and how we would navigate this new parent/child relationship together. I knew there would be hard days, but I knew there would be great ones too (and I was right).
A year ago today, I pictured what our life would be like. Even though you screamed at me quite a bit today (I think you're teething), you have been so sweet. I went to get you out of your bassinet this morning and you gave me the biggest, happiest smile as soon as we locked eyes. I instantly melted. Sometimes we just sit and stare at each other and I try to memorize every little detail of your perfect little face because I know tomorrow, you will look just a wee bit different and before I know it, you won't be a baby any more. While this makes me sad, I also am really enjoying watching you learn and grow and develop everyday.
A year ago today, I couldn't wait for you to arrive. You light up my world and I couldn't be more grateful to be your mom. It's the greatest privilege I will ever have.
A year ago today, I knew life would be good, but I didn't know it would be this good.